Everyone faces different challenges with their eating disorder recovery. There are always certain eating disorder rules that people feel they have to follow. Examples of rules include those around exercise obsession, trying new food, not counting calories or weighing out food, meal times, eating out. The list really is endless. In recovery, it is really …
A pretty inevitable fact of anorexia recovery is that you will end up growing out of small clothes. I feel this topic of clothes becoming too small for you, isn’t really talked about that much as you are going through it. So much of the focus of anorexia recovery is on weight gain and helping …
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The reality of anorexia The beginning It’s break time at school and you and your friends are scrolling through Instagram. You are bombarded with stunningly beautiful celebrities. A friend says she’s going on a diet, so your other friends say they are too. “We can go to the gym together – It’ll be fun,” they …
I have a tendency to compare myself to other people. Well, I say I have tendency but it’s not really. It is more of a compulsion – I do it so often that to me, it feels like I am genetically hard-wired to compare myself to others. I don’t really chose to do it, I …
I was asked to write a letter to my younger self for the eating disorder charity FirstSteps ED. What would I say to the younger me knowing what I know now. Anorexia clearly started to creep into my life when I was a young teenager, although I didn’t know it at the time. This letter …
Home workouts? Baking banana bread? Online courses? If you haven’t completed one of these activities yet, you may well be feeling that you are the only one in the world who hasn’t. My social media is filled with videos, photos and messages of people using their time in lockdown to be really productive. Whether that …
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The world seems very scary and uncertain at the moment with Corona Virus. Everyone is dealing with the stress and anxiety in their own way. Everyone has their own coping strategies. For me? Welcome back anorexia. You had become so much quieter and I was making good progress with my recovery. But when faced with …
For the first time this week I went to two universities to speak to nursing and psychology students about eating disorders. I am not someone who is very confident in presentations and I also have no confidence in my ability to talk smoothly and articulately. I was incredibly nervous – I was a million miles …
“You are giving 2kgs an awful lot of power.” My therapist said this to me this week in response to me saying that I wanted to lose 2kgs. I had explained how I’d be much more comfortable if I was 2kgs lighter, how, a few months ago when I was 2kgs lighter, everything in my …
I was 21 years old and suffering from severe anorexia nervosa. I had recently been admitted to hospital – my third eating disorder admission in 2 years. I was becoming a revolving door patient. But this time, the eating disorder hospital I was sent to refused to admit me – my health was too compromised, …
My life is controlled by numbers. I don’t eat food, I eat numbers. The only meal that isn’t exactly calorie counted is my dinner, but I know it is always roughly the same. I know how many calories I can eat in a day, so all my food is based around this. If I eat …
Eating Food When You Have Anorexia – It’s all about the numbers!!! Read More »
Last week, my job as a sport science intern at a football club came to an end. I started a new job this week doing admin in my local general hospital. At this point in my life, I don’t really know what I am doing or where I am going. I know what my hopes …