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What a weekend. It wasn’t just a great weekend in itself, but it was a great weekend for making progress with my recovery. It was my friends 30th birthday party and it involved a meal at a tapas restaurant with about 20 people (most of whom I didn’t know) and then everyone onto Popworld (a …

I Believe I Can Fly

I generally struggle to be positive. I have a very negative outlook on everything. At the moment, particularly with my job and with Christmas approaching, my negativity is heightened. I am, however, trying to change my overly pessimistic outlook. There have been some changes recently that I have made which have been positive and which, …

My Life in Their Hands

Without it, I risk losing a lot of weight, becoming very ill, being hospitalised and, more than likely, dying. Not only has it helped me build a life, it now helps me manage anorexia so that I can live this life and go about normal things (going out to work, seeing friends etc). Without it, …

Daring to eat

Old habits die hard. A very true saying. Anorexic habits die even harder. And it is some of my anorexic habits that I have been challenging these past 3 weeks. It has been hard…very hard. But I know I can’t keep staying in the safety of my anorexic comfort zone, never making any changes, telling …

Irrational Fears

When I did my undergraduate degree at Loughborough there was the option in my final year to do a dissertation or to not to. The idea of doing a dissertation terrified me and I thought that there was no way that I would be able to, so I chose not to. When I completed my …

The End of an Era

In the space of 3 days, I said goodbye to my 20s and my Masters came to an end. Wow! Two major life events and they hit me one straight after the other. And they are both quite hard to deal with, as they would be for anybody. Ending my Masters has left me with …

A night of terror

I woke up about 3.30am and heard a crackling noise but instantly fell back to sleep. I kept waking up over the next 15 minutes to the same noise but never properly woke up, always falling back half a sleep. After about the 5th time of semi-waking up I thought “what the hell is that …

Stress!

Stressed doesn’t even begin to cut it. My dissertation is so hard, I just feel like I can’t do it. Every situation I enter into I feel like it isn’t possible for it to be more stressful, but it is! I spent half of May, the whole of June and most of July carrying out …
So it’s been 10 years since I first went into hospital. 10 years since my skeletal body that could barely put one foot in front of the other looked up at the flight of stairs leading to Phoenix Wing, the eating disorder unit at St Ann’s hospital. I had no idea how I was going …

A Juggling Act

I always knew doing a Masters would be hard work, really hard work. And I was right. At the moment, my stress levels are through the roof, with deadlines on top of deadlines, coursework and assessments coming out of my ear-holes, not to mention having to start my dissertation – the biggest stress of it …

Facts and Fiction

I thought anorexia was a thing…like, a good thing. I didn’t know it was a mental illness, I just thought it was a term used to describe someone who was thin, who was good at resisting food. Willpower, strength and thinness…the things I was desperate for. And I was desperate to be able to call …
I go to university, I go to lessons, I chat to course mates…But I battle with fear of failing and fear that no one really likes me. I study, I write essays, I do coursework…But I’m not allowed to sit down and I’m constantly distracted by thoughts of food and weight. Terrified of gaining weight …
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